Starting from the start

Lately, I’ve wanted so much to start writting again on the blog, but couldn’t find any inspiration as the content on my blog is actually kind of melancholic and sad based on romantic past experiences.
Anyway, I finally got the courage to share with whoever will decide to read this- some of my feelings that are based mostly on my experiences from the last year.
There are some very important things, I believe, that I learnt and for which I am pretty grateful. ‘Pretty’ because I had to learn them the hard way.
So I will start by saying to you that the world is so big and bad and this is how we learn things. We finally find someone one day to whom we wouldn’t give any chance to, but suddenly they make sense to your existense. You fall in love with only two imaginary moments that won’t last but this represents the best. The best in you. And maybe, somehow, the best in them too. Even though you know that it won’t last, you fall. They leave and let your soul in pieces but maybe it’s because you’ll become a better person. Maybe you needed that. You won’t understand and you will be in pain but that’s it. The worst part is moving on but you’ll figure it out. You’ll die a little bit, but you’ve died a bit in the past too and you’re still alive to write this. So you’ll decide you’ll keep the memories and you’ll put them deep inside your heart. They will try to get out sometimes but you will bury them somehow.
Then you will learn that you will have to take some risks and some bad decisions, you will fall and you will crawl and you will walk again. You will have some black nights and nightmares and you will think that they will never end. But somehow, if you wish it so bad, you will make a way out. Something inside you will help you see the light at the end of the tunnel. Maybe it’s the love you kept giving to the others but you should have given it to you instead.
Then you will learn that you have to make some sacrifices, that money is not that important as you think, but a rested heart really is. You will have the biggest desire to give up, you won’t understand and the Universe will make things  even worse but you still survive. You don’t know how, but you still survive.
Then you will realize that the people you loved aren’t so loveble anymore. You will cross the street to avoid them one day just because they did the same with you. You will understand that the people you love are not able to love you as much as you do. And that’s fine. That’s a very fine thing for you to realize that you do not need anybody, you do not need to cherish people or to make them like you. You do not have to demonstrate anything to anyone. You can do a lot of things by yourself even if those people won’t even say ‘hi’ anymore. Do not look to be liked by people who do not feel the same as you do, who do not love as much as you do. It’s ok if they don’t understant, it’s you the one who has to understand. Let them criticize and get their own opinion. They do not have the same heart as you do. Do not listen to them if your heart is pure....
And last but not the least, you will feel lonely sometimes. You will try to feel the void inside of you and you won’t manage to figure it out. But it’s ok. It’s ok to feel lost. It’s ok not to have accomplished anything you wanted by the age of 26. It’s ok to cry your heart out and feel pain. Cause this is you, kid, this is all you can do. This is all you can do at the end of the day, but you did the best of you, didn’t you? Some people are better, some are smarter, some are better paid, some are promoted, some have kids, some are already married and live the happily ever after fairytale but they are not you. And it’s ok to be broken cause you’re the one who will be able to put the stitches back together...